N° 19

I don’t know if I believe in
Love at first sight.

I imagine it must be a glorious feeling
To see someone
And your heart stops
Or whatever.

So on one hand I hope it exists
And it’ll hit me some day

But on the other hand
I don’t.

Because isn’t loving someone
At first sight
Just
Very shallow?

N° 18

Do you feel worthy?
Loved?

Sometimes I don’t.

However, that’s not because
I’m not worthy
Or loved
But because I make myself believe
I am not.

I judge everything I do
Everything I say
Even all of my thoughts.

But in the end
To be worthy and truly loved
Doesn’t depend on any condition.

How were we so close?
I can’t even remember the state
Before the awkwardness

Vs.

I still dream of you
And wake up feeling confused
Because I’m only me now

–mending takes longer than breaking-

How do you know if it’s love?
Who even decided that it exists
Because
Really, there is no proof at all for it

So how do you know?
I guess you just have to believe
Or else
You will never feel it yourself.

-proof of love-

I have a fear that I will never feel it
But I’m terrified of the thought that Maybe
I already felt it

–love-

Maybe
I have a fear that now
If I fall
Nobody will be running to catch me

But what even happens
If I fall?

Maybe
I’ll just wake up
With a beating heart but still fine

In dreams you do